The Epic of Mandala: Canto II

Mandala stopped and watched the protest for

A while, and read the signs demanding more:
more social justice and more distribution

Of wealth. Mandala thought, ‘Here’s much confusion.’

“My friends,” he said. “Do you not know that wealth

Can never be distributed? No health

Can be achieved by making sugars fair

In where they’re sent. The brain would whither. Care

Must first be made to understand what you

Must do if you’d achieve your goals. What true

Purpose is it you would achieve? Do you

Want wealth for all, or mere equality?

The first will make unequal and yet free;

The second with spread poverty and each

Must get unequal treatment. Who would teach

The lie that otherwise could be the case?

You’d break some legs so all could win the race?”
The crowd turned angry and began to shout.

“You’d dare defend the rich? You’d best get out

Of here, you racist, sexist, homophobe.”
“I’d love to stay here just so I could probe

The reasoning behind such accusations.

Is that what lies behind these demonstrations?

Your racist, sexist, homophobic thought

Breeds guilt that you project on others. Ought

You spend some time reflecting so that you

Can cure yourself and to yourself be true?”
The crowd began to move toward him, so

Mandala backed away. “It’s time to go.

Your ears are not prepared for truth. I hope

They are one day. But truth is hard to cope

With. May you fail so you’ll succeed. Goodbye.”

Mandala, saddened, left them with their lie.

The crowd continued yelling as he left.

He wondered at his failure, how bereft

Of influence his words had been. He came

To a café and saw inside a claim

Upon his time he always gave: his friend

Matthew was there. Mandala could depend

On him to listen, so he went inside

And sat, invited, by his favorite guide.

Mandala told his friend what happened just

Two blocks away. Matthew said, “Well, I trust

You learned a thing or two. Don’t waste a word

On people who insist that the absurd

Is possible or anything we’d wish.

They are the kind of people who think fish

Are soluble because they wish it so.”
Mandala said, “In truth, I think I know

Why they are out there. Not because of what

Their signs proclaim. I promise that is but

The surface.” “Well, then, tell me why they’re there.

It’s lack of social justice, they declare.”

“They protest so they will not have to think,

And all the while they fear that they will sink

To filling all their time with labor. They

Are both afraid to work and fear a day

Of contemplation lest they face the fact

That playtime’s over and they’ll have to act

And take responsibility for what

They do. They fear their conscience. It will cut

The fog of power they’ve been taught to lust

For, let embrace them, until they won’t trust

Each other, let alone one who would dare

To disagree with them – they cannot bear

The thought of being wrong – and thus they break

The natural social bonds, all for the sake

Of making social bonds that they believe

Are better. Why? Who knows? They’re too naïve.

In ignorance they will proclaim their will –

And they’ll use force to make sure we’ll fulfill

Their fever-dream of earthly heaven well,

And do not care their dreams all lead to Hell.”
Then Matthew asked, “You really think they all

Protest because they fear to hear the call

Of consciousness and conscience? That they fear

What leisure and thus thought will make them hear?”
Mandala nodded. “Don’t we fill our days

With work and noise? Our music, T.V. raze

Our thoughts when we won’t give ourselves the time

To think. Instead, we only always chime

In with the crowd and sheepishly declare

Our individuality is there

When all we ever do is go along.

We only ever sing another’s song.”

“You proclaim ‘we’ – do you include yourself?”
“I’m trying hard to get off of that shelf.

But don’t we always just accept most that

We hear? The knowledge which our brains grow fat

Upon was almost all created by

Another – we don’t test it all. Deny

What almost everyone believes is true

And you will find your social life is through.

They’ll treat you like you like to murder, rape –

And all because we are a social ape.

And yet, if we don’t sometimes break away,

It’s human progress that will always pay.”

“And what if you don’t think that we progress?”
“When you deny reality, the mess

Resulting will make you deny the arts

And culture, see just unconnected parts

That have to consciously be organized,

That government is what has harmonized

The social world. Too many think that force

Is needed to keep each man on his course.”

The Epic of Mandala: Canto I

Mandala stood and waited for the light

To change so he could cross the street. His right

Hand held his black umbrella to keep off

The mist. The storm’s rain turbulanced the trough

Between the sidewalk and the concrete street,

The remnants streaming in chaotic beat

Into the drains below his feet. The cars

Slowed at the yellow, red electric stars

That ordered inefficiently the spins

Of endless satellites. The crowd begins

To move. Mandala moves with it. He’s budged

Into the street and as he walks he’s nudged

In random walks as he flows down the walk.

He thinks that he and Barbara have to talk.

Mandala lived with Barbara, and they’d been

Together through his Ph.D., from when

They met in his first year when he was reading

His poetry. The coffee shop was needing

More patrons, and they opened evenings up

For open mics at night. She had a cup

Of mocha which she sipped in rhythm to

Manadala’s rhymed iambic verse. She grew

Enamored with him with each rhyming line,

Until she almost felt his wisdom shine.

(It hardly hurt that he was handsome, whole

Addition to the beauty of his soul.)
he finished and she went to him, and they

Had been together from that very day.

And now Mandala was prepared to dine

With her tonight, Antonio’s at nine.

Mandala could not learn enough, and so

His education started with the low

And least complex and moved into the high

And most complex, from math, the simple lie,

Precise approximation of the truth,

A sentiment that many thought uncouth,

Through quantum physics, then through chemistry –

He also majored in biology.

An economics Master’s he achieves,

Then Ph.D. in the humanities,

With major publications in them all,

He nonetheless felt he had hit a wall.

The only time that Mandala felt free

Was any time he wrote his poetry,

Disorder that exploded in the form

That helped contain the dialectic storm.

The rain engaged the waves of hair that fell

Down to his collar, stringing it. To dwell

Upon his past with her, the problems he

Would have without her, warm nostalgia’s plea

Combined with comfort’s soothing voice could not

Dissuade him from his course. This was his lot –

He knew what he must do – he heard the voice

That led him well. He had the choice

To listen or ignore it, yet he knew

Ignoring it would make deep pain his due

And he would end up doing what he should,

And only then would his life become good.

He learned his lesson the way we all learn:
by suffering. All people seem to spurn

Advice from everyone. Mandala was

The same, and so he suffered, as one does

When one ignores what one knows one must do

And wanders off the path one knows is true.

Mandala wandered once the woods – those free

Of messiness, of pure geometry.

But he was told, “My son, it’s time to go.

The world must grow complex so you an know

The way the universe became to be –

You must reflect the university.”
But he resisted, wanting to remain

In heaven’s harmonies. He would not deign

Consider messiness a worthy thing

To understand, to study, or to sing.

And so he fell in love with one who would

Refuse to love him back. He thought he could

Convince her, but she said she was in love

And would not leave her boyfriend. His love of

She who he could not have drew him away

From all his friends, into a forest gray

With shadows, where he wandered, then alone

The first time in his life. The trees were bone,

The ravens watched with eyes of stone, the sky

And leaves were textured, greyed the same. A fly

Annoyed him with the only sound. The path

Wound down into a valley where his wrath

Turned in upon itself, and when he saw

A deep abyss, he looked into its maw.

The empty blackness stared at him, he fell,

And would have kept on falling into Hell

Had not a rope been flung to him. He reached

And grabbed the rope before the darkness leached

His soul from him. Mandala felt himself

Pulled up until he reached the abyss shelf

And aw a bushy-mustached man, his hand

Outstretched to help Mandala onto land.

“It’s fortunate you did not have that far

To fall,” the man said. “You’re a dancing star

Who neither knows he is a star and still

Must learn to dance. You have to climb the hill

Before you now before you can shed light

On others’ paths to tear away their night.”
“You throw me in the pit to help me out?”
Mandala asked. “You fill me full of doubt

Then try to give me confidence to ruse

Above the rest?” “Of course. He who denies

Me, I will come to them. You fell, I came.”
Mandala breathed a long, low sigh. “Your fame,”
The man continued, “Will increase if you

Learn to embrace and speak to all what’s true.”

“I always speak what’s true. I speak in math.”
“A seeming hard, but really simply path.

You have to grow into complexity

And not get weighed down by your gravity.

A single poem has much more to say

Than all the man you know or ever may.”

“Don’t be ridiculous,” Mandala said.

“There’s much more that you need inside your head,”
The man continued. “Physics up through life,

The brain, the social sciences, the strife

That drives complexity, humanities.”

A jasmine scent embraced them on a breeze.

The man said, “Someday soon you’ll see the truth.

And now, I hope you don’t find me uncouth,

But I must leave you know so you’ll find you

Beneath the things you learned – there lies what’s true.”

“You start off well, then leave with a cliché?”

“It’s really all the same from day to day.

You surely know the song, ‘It’s All Been Done,’

The verse ‘There’s nothing new under the sun’?”

Mandala said, “Now wait a minute, there.

That’s patently untrue. With every pair

Of paradox resolved in constant strife

The universe complexified to life

And man, whose brains complexify with time

And social density, to reduce crime

And deaths by war across our history

As liberal social orders make us free,

Emerged to understand that universe,

Ourselves, as much as we are bridge and nurse

To more complex and thus more beautiful

New forms of thought and being in each skull.”

“My lovely boy, you’re wise enough to know

All that, so what is it that dims your glow?

Closed mind, and system, falls to entropy –

Both open both, increase complexity.”
With that, the man then walked away to seek

The crest so he could leap from peak to peak.

But that was many years ago. He grew

To learn to love the chaos, for he knew

It would self-organize without his thought

To pressure it into new form – it brought

Itself about, much as the thought that pulled

Him to decide that it was time he culled

His life of Barbara. What he had to do

Required that he dissolve any glue

That held him to a certain time or place.

He hoped that he could cut her off with grace.

The Epic of Mandala: Prologue in Rose’s Dream

The breeze blew through the window cool and Rose

Slipped slowly through to vivid-dreaming doze.

And in the dream she found a coiling path

That curled there by a complex fractal math.

And ferns unfurled around her, rising high

Around her as a voice said, “Don’t deny

The purpose I have given you. You are

The one I chose to give birth to a star,

A source of light for unwise days to come,

A time when men are deaf and blind and dumb

To wisdom, thinking they can know what they

Cannot, that there’s no limit to the day,

That knowledge, truth no longer matters, and

Their good intentions are enough. The sand

Of foolishness and ignorance has filled

The land. They think the world is as they’ve willed.

And so I send a son to you to bring

A message of true unity, to sing

Of knowledge and of wisdom and the goal

Of unifying both in beauty. Soul

Of beauty is the goal. One day your son

Will bring this truth as a bright golden light

To man – he’ll be a source of fright, and sight.”

The sky was filled with butterflies that stirred

The air into a hurricane. A bird

Then rose and with its wings it washed away

The sparkling insects form the sky to play

Among the leaves. The bird then spread its tail

In Fibonacci eyes, let out a wail

So that that Rose began to cry. The tears

Rolled down her cheeks, the bird-ails filled her ears,

The tears fell to the dust and from them grew

Up twinning briars to a tree that drew

Up to the sky, then bloomed a single rose.

The voice said, “From this single flower grows

A rebirth of the human universe.

He’ll meet with praise and he will have men curse

The very air he breathes. And thus his name

Will be Mandala, as it is the same

As that which hides the hidden principles

Of growth and change that’s realized in the full

And agnostic tension of the pair

In paradox, a truth he will declare.”

Then all went dark, and rose, with echoed voice,

Said, “If that is your will, that is my choice.”
And rose was standing on the beach, the sea

Was rosing in the sunrise. She felt free.

And standing on the shore, the waves would break

Around her feet. And then she was awake.

Apocalypse

The antichrist was given his appointment on this day,
A day which marks an end, a turn, beginnings which betray
A darkness masquerading as the light, carnal delight
Devouring the sheepish goats, those knowing what is right
And choosing, nonetheless, against the right. No, ignorance
Is no excuse for them – they know, and yet they choose to dance
In darkness lighted only by the morning star. They choose
With knowledge, full enlightenment, and yet promote a ruse
To shackle us, indebt us to indentureship, inflate
Us to docility so, mindless, we’ll accept our fate.
The seen is glorified above the unseen and true love
Is denigrated, sacrifice replaced by force, the dove
Of peace considered foolishness, and reason
Is twisted in the gales that rise as mankind changes season.

Beloved, you must follow me into the roiling seas
To battle beasts that fill the waves and ignore all our please.
Alone, I would not stand a second, but together we
Are sword and shield, a glowing light – before us he will flee.
He cannot stand our knowledge and he cannot stand our choices
To act, react, and interact and, singing, raise our voices
In praise and joy and peace. We’ll dare to love and embrace shame
And have the trust of trade, and we will not fear to proclaim
Allegiance with the beautiful, with virtue and the true,
The wine, the bread, the meat of life and soul, the spirit blue
With light and dryness, wisp white so far away and cold,
It seems, at times. But don’t lose faith, the faith that makes us bold
Enough to say that we believe and that we love each other
As we would love and cherish our own father, son, and mother.

The spirit of the antichrist has come to earth again
To change the world, to redirect us, and to make us sin –
We’ll miss the mark and only hit it when there’s nothing left
For us to do, and then we’ll shoulder the whole world and heft
It up, for darkness is not our eternal, earthly fate.
No, those who live a life of peace and trust will see the gate
That opens to another world, a real and promised land
Where beauty, justice, wealth, and truth are freed from the demand
Of power, which destroys and fosters hate and sows the weeds
That kill the complex ecosystem of our lives and deeds.
Divisions aren’t divine; with antichrist we will be split
And atomized, reduced to cogs to make sure we can fit
Into the abysmal machine of his selfish design
Instead of the spontaneous growing of the divine.

Frosty the Hitman (c. early 1980s)

Once upon a time, when they were children, my brother, Todd, and his best friend, Joe Gamblin, came up with a parody of "Frosty the Snowman." I don't know if they remember it, but I do:

Frosty the Hitman
Was a very unmerry soul
With an M16
And lots of ammo
And two eyes of bullet holes
Down through the village,
With a shotgun in his hand
Shooting here and there,
All around the square,
Saying, "Shoot me if you can!"

There must have been some magic
In that old handgun they found
For when they placed it in his hand
He began to shoot them down

Oh, Frosty the Hitman
Was a very unmerry soul
With an M16
And lots of ammo
And two eyes of bullet holes!

Bang-ity bang-bang
Bang-ity bang-bang
Look at Frosty go
Bang-ity bang-bang
Bang-ity bang-bang
Full of bullet holes!

On the Richardson Christmas Village

(With Apologies to Johnny Mathis)

It's beginning to look like postmodern Christmas
Ev'rywhere you go;
You've got Existential angst and Derrida to thank'st
For the ironic references to snow.
It's beginning to look like postmodern Christmas
Putting off all fun
As we stand in line to see the nose that's artificially
Slapped on with paint -- you're done.